New Day, New Girl

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Worn: DIY Day (working on a fun new project!)

Outfit Details:
Pants: Sirens
Shirt: Walmart
Shoes: Aldo
Scarf: Reitmans
Lipstick: Rimmel Kate Collection #107

Yesterday was a place that I never want to go again, in fact, it’s a place I haven’t been in a while and didn’t even realize I knew the way back. People always say that once you’ve battled depression in your life it’s impossible to be fully over it, and this is something I’ve found to be true in my life, but for me there are two types of depression; one is a funk that lasts a couple of hours or a day and then I shake it off, the other is a dark never ending hole that scares the life out of me. Yesterday I was way too close to the second kind of depressed, a place that I battled too hard to get out of and am not willing to visit again!

As always, I share my reality with all of you not for sympathy, but just in case my reality mirrors even a tiny little bit of your life. It’s easy to see someone on the Internet, from far away and think ‘her life must be perfect’ (I do it all the time). It’s important to know though; everyone has demons, and everyone has a back story.

In my personal situation I’ve found gratitude to be a great antidote to feelings of depression. Last night I spent some time thinking about all the good things in my life and I felt uplifted and motivated. It’s easy to think about the things we don’t have (in my case perfect health and bread), and it’s just as easy to overlook what we do have. Without a doubt though, whenever I sit down and count my blessings – I feel truly blessed. So although I’ll never be perfectly ‘cured’ and there will always be the lurking danger of that dark place, I’ll always have this place to come back to and untangle my thoughts and fears. Today I feel exceptionally blessed to have this space and all you who read my words. This day is really looking up!

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PS: We haven’t really talked about clothes lately (wink, wink, hint, hint, Raj) …. so I was thinking, I’ve bought quite a few pieces from Walmart in the last 6-8 months. I had pretty much written off Walmart clothes when my kids were little because I found the quality so poor, but the last few sweatshirts and sweaters I bought turned out pretty good.

 

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  1. February 18, 2014 / 11:43 am

    Love the way you’re wearing your scarf – and the way you’re wearing your smile :) Everything you have written here hits home to me. Thank you for sharing yourself with your readers this way. It’s important for our readers to see us as real people. Glad it’s a better day <3

    • February 18, 2014 / 6:04 pm

      Thank you Taslim. It’s not always easy to write from this place, but I think it’s part of the healing process for me.

  2. Gillian
    February 18, 2014 / 1:32 pm

    The dark purple/pink combo obviously works for you, and looks great! The colour and fit of the purple shirt suits you much more than the blue one from yesterday, just sayin’.

    • Gillian
      February 18, 2014 / 1:36 pm

      Also, you are honest & brave! Do you think clothing choices reflect our moods, or the other way around?

      • February 18, 2014 / 6:04 pm

        Thank you Gillian! For me my mood often dictates what I wear, but there was definitely a time in my life where I was wearing horrible clothes and that was making me feel worse about myself – does that make sense?

  3. February 19, 2014 / 7:29 am

    Love the scarf – I can never tie them to look that nice – and it’s pop of cheerful pink.
    Perfect outfit for home.
    I’m still in PJ’s today, but it is in the spirit of unity for a sick little one who is home from school today. I can’t say I mind too much on these days.

  4. Hannah Avery
    February 19, 2014 / 7:29 pm

    Your outfit is very pretty! Very nice color combination!

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